The Wind Whispers

LaLa

2010-07-06T14:13:00.000+08:00

SO IN LOVE!

:D

Free Ride

2010-05-06T15:22:00.001+08:00

Fail

2010-05-06T15:00:00.002+08:00

POVERTY

2010-05-06T14:59:00.002+08:00

Sinister Sister

2010-04-20T14:52:00.003+08:00

Freedom!!!

2010-04-20T14:51:00.002+08:00

SUCKISH HAIRCUT

2010-04-20T14:50:00.002+08:00

UPDATES.. UPDATES.. UPDATES....=]

2010-04-12T16:00:00.000+08:00

GRADUATION

2010-03-27T10:05:00.000+08:00

When Man-Whore Comes

2010-03-25T18:50:00.002+08:00

COLDS

2010-03-22T18:06:00.002+08:00

The Ring

2010-03-17T17:43:00.000+08:00

:D <3

Gufous, Clumsy, Stupid..

2010-03-15T18:41:00.000+08:00

It's the THIRD!!

2010-03-13T17:21:00.000+08:00

Two Part Evaluation

2010-03-12T17:39:00.000+08:00

Wacky Blog Post

2010-03-11T21:32:00.000+08:00

It's obvious that I haven't been updating my blog so to make it fun for me and somewhat fun for you, I decided to make this a Video Blog.

First Video Blog Post EVER!!!

The Irony

2010-01-06T18:59:00.000+08:00

Hey guys! Sorry if I haven't posted a thing in awhile. How was my New Year? Not so great. But I hope yours was awesome!

Here's the thing, every student wants to go to a good school at college for better job opportunities. I am one of those aspiring students and believe me, its never easy. Of course, most of you already know that.

The ironic thing is I'm not really a bookworm or a person craving for more knowledge. I'm just a simple student dreaming of the future I'm not even working hard for. I usually procrastinate, even during pre-college entrance exam periods. HAHA! But, even if I'm this kind of person, I still passed one of the high standard schools in the country, De La Salle University, Manila. Isn't it IRONIC?! I couldn't believe it myself either. I guess I'm just lucky, or smart in nature. HAHA! Now I'm just pretentious. HAHA!

But what makes me happier, my friends and parents being so proud of me for what happened! HAHA! I'm not sure if I'll enter this school, though. I'm still waiting for the other results. I hope I pass them, too! Pray for me, kay?

University of the Philippines
Ateneo de Manila University
University of Santo Tomas

No One (When I've got nothing to do.)

2009-12-29T21:14:00.001+08:00

Don't judge my singing okay?

:D

Psycho-translation

2009-12-13T19:02:00.000+08:00

Kulisap ( Fireflies )
Kuwago Siyudad ( Owl City )

Di ka maniniwala sa’yong mata
Pag Sampumg Milyong Kulisap
Ay nagliliwanag habang ika’y tulog

Dahil pinupuno nila ang paligid
At nagiiwan ng luha sa kung saan
Baka isipin mong bastos ako pero nakatulala lang ako sa kanila

Chorus:
Gusto kong paniwalain ang sarili ko
Na ang mundo ay umiikot ng mabagal
Mahirap sabihin na mas gusto kong gumising kahit ako’y tulog
Dahil ang lahat ay hindi tulad ng inaasahan

Dahil ako’y may isang libong yakap
Galing sa Sampung Libong Kuryenteng Insekto
Habang tinuturuan nila akong sumayaw

Isang Foxtrot sa taas ng ulo ko
Mediyas Talon sa ilalim ng kama ko
Isang Disco Ball na nakasampay sa sinulid

Chorus:
Gusto kong paniwalain ang sarili ko
Na ang mundo ay umiikot ng mabagal
Mahirap sabihin na mas gusto kong gumising kahit ako’y tulog
Dahil ang lahat ay hindi tulad ng inaasahan

Buksan ang pintuan ko ng isang lamat
Dahil isa akong hindi makatulog

Bakit ko ba pinapagod ang sarili ko sa pagbilang ng kambing
Kung sobrang pagod na akong matulog

Para sa Sampung Milyong Kulisap
Ako’y weirdo pagkat ayoko sa mga paalam
Mayroon akong misteryosong mata noong sila’y nagpaalam

Pero alam ko kung saan ang marami
Kapag naging kakaiba ang aking panaginip
Dahil may mga tinago ako sa isang kahon

Chorus:
Gusto kong paniwalain ang sarili ko
Na ang mundo ay umiikot ng mabagal
Mahirap sabihin na mas gusto kong gumising kahit ako’y tulog
Dahil ang lahat ay hindi tulad ng inaasahan
Chorus:
Gusto kong paniwalain ang sarili ko
Na ang mundo ay umiikot ng mabagal
Mahirap sabihin na mas gusto kong gumising kahit ako’y tulog
Dahil ang lahat ay hindi tulad ng inaasahan

Gusto kong paniwalain ang sarili ko
Na ang mundo ay umiikot ng mabagal
Mahirap sabihin na mas gusto kong gumising kahit ako’y tulog
Dahil ang aking mga panaginip ay lumalabas na . . .

Everyone! Sing it in the tune of Fireflies by Owl City. Its really funny if you try. HAHA!

Frenzy for Noodles

2009-12-03T21:28:00.000+08:00

I'm currently eating noodle soup and it's so yummy! HAHA!! pssshhhlpt!!

That's right guys! I'm addicted to noodles! Especially when its in a soup! Yum!

Best noodles ever, Seafood Ramen. Yepp! Its a japanese treat that'll surely tickle your taste buds! But I only eat a bowl when I'm at a restaurant and I haven't been out for awhile so I haven't tasted ramen in a while. SUCKS!

Because of my frenzy, I would kill just to taste a sip of noodles. Especially when its mixed properly (oh my God!), it tastes like heaven! Its not exactly heaven though but I feel good when I eat them. HAHA!

So go out and taste noodles! Especially Seafood Ramen!

Another useless post thanks to moi!

Last Tango In Paris

2009-12-01T21:05:00.000+08:00

A lot of films about romance and fornication have been made, but this film is the one that started it all.

Last Tango In Paris—starring The Great Marlon Brando—is a film made in the year 1972. This film invented the word "X-rated". A lot of countries banned this movie from showing but some were desperate in watching it that there were 2hour lines in every movie house you can see. It made the world go crazy.

I bet you're wondering, "Why is she blogging about this?". It's simple really, I wanna watch it!! Now I'm searching every movie site and every person I know for a DVD of this classic film. Unfortunately, its so hard to find a copy. How could I find one? Its a very old film.

To all my readers, please! Help me find a DVD copy! If you couldn't find one, a VCD would do—wow, how primitive. If —by any chance— you found one, please contact me ASAP! I need this before Christmas. You could actually give this as a Christmas gift—not like I'm expecting one. Deal? Thanks!

The Twilight Saga: New Moon Review

2009-11-27T18:24:00.000+08:00

Like any other mythological tale, The Twilight Saga: New Moon is about the rivalry of a vampire and a werewolf. But this time, its not about power, honor and territory. Its more of who gets the girl.

This movie is the much-awaited movie of 2009 by people—or by the female raise—around the globe. Since the first part was a hit, obviously this is, too. Its hard to make a review about the movie, though. Why? Because two hot guys in the movie are distracting every girl on earth from comprehending the film. Duh!

They did a great job in choosing the actors to play each other but I may have a problem about Bella's depression because its kinda weird to be shouting in your sleep almost every night of your gloomy time. But that doesn't bother me as much as the poor acting some of the actors did. Jacob's wolf friends may be inexperienced actors. But Jacob's body distracted me into observing his friends better. HAHA!

About Edward leaving Bella, it made my eyes teary. I felt pity for her, of course. I mean, the love of your life—the only reason why you still struggle to survive—left you, that's the hardest thing a girl could go unto. The pain must have been excruciating for Bella, but the fact that she was screaming in her sleep was too much for me.

The effects didn't seem to impress me, either. The animated wolves were easily detected mainly because the effects were poor. Even the part when the wolves were killing Laurent. It was so obvious. They could have done better, I know. They just didn't put much effort into making it. But Victoria swimming gave me goosebumps.

About the fight scenes in Volturi, it didn't give me a standing ovation or at least a glaring one. I wasn't convinced.

But the love triangle thing gave me a tingling sensation. My zeal for Edward increased for the fact that he's willing to fight for Bella's love. Jacob may have won my sympathy, though. He's willingness to be with Bella is one of the most romantic thing an out-of-relationship guy can do for a girl. The twist though was a flummox. I guess we'll just wait for the next movie to end the discombobulation.

The Snowball of the Philippines

2009-11-23T18:53:00.000+08:00

His name, Kan Opiano Yamaguchi or Kan Olquino Yamaguchi but Kan Yamaguchi will do or Kan for short. I consider him The Snowball of the Philippines.

I may not know a lot about him, but I could tell you few things intriguing ones. One thing is that his our Core Commander. I know what you're thinking. He maybe strict, right? On the contrary, no he's not. He's actually fun to be with. You can rely on him, too! He helps me out with Arvin all the time. Next, he's a half-jap, that's why he has white skin.

Hm, what else? Oh yeah! His nose bleeds a lot. I don't know if this still happens but I saw a lot of blood action a few years ago and it was GRUESOME! Next, he and Arvin are good friends. The very reason why we became friends. By the way, he's also very passionate when it comes to love. Maybe that's why I could always relate. HAHA!

He also likes making quotations and proverbs. He makes me read them whenever we chat. Here are some.

~> Kung malalaman mo ang secret, mawawala ang mystery. Kapag nawala ang mystery, wala nang magic. Kapag wala nang magic, wala nang excitement.
~> Pretty, pretty please! With cheese on top.
~> Don't expect that you can get all that you want to have.
~> wOw (words Of wisdom)
~> Don't expect so much or it will tear you apart.
~> Don't love someone that never try loving or knowing you from who you really are.

Those we're just from our conversation awhile ago. But trust me, there's more where that came from. If you want to know more about Kan, make friends with him. Or chat with him through ym, mrguchi_06@yahoo.com. Thats all!

A Barren Rendezvous

2009-11-20T21:36:00.000+08:00

HAHA! Our endeavor, shoot a commercial to promote our product, The Styling Comb! HAHA! But all plans can change in the future, and so did this plan. LOL!

Me and Clauds hurried to my crib so that I can fix it for our shooting. Next, the guys took a long time to get to my house. Good thing they weren't lost. Almost everyone arrived at around 5-6pm, almost nightfall, except the most important person in the group. We couldn't start without him, obviously. He's the leader. How heedless, right? He actually arrived when everyone was set to leave. It really pissed me off. I'm not ranting the person but we went on time in the given schedule he has given then he'll be the one running off "I'm sorry I'm late. Strictest parents ever!". Please. He has sold that line to everyone except me. I know that's not true.

Anyway, enough about him. Let's just proceed to what we did while waiting. We watched basketball, played Restaurant City on Facebook, took pictures, and had an Open Forum. We bonded a lot really. Even if we're not a clique in our class. Its really a good way of expanding your circle of friends. HAHA! I LOVE PETEII!

No More

2009-11-19T19:12:00.000+08:00

Uhm, you might be disappointed about this post because I'm no longer gonna post things about my love life, or at least problems about my love life. I won't say why but if you want to know and can't talk to me, you can check my other blog. http://esoteric-ballads.blogspot.com . . haha! BUT its private. . .LOL!

From now on, all you'll be seeing here at my blog are my candid moments with friends, family feuds, and nonsense! HAHAHA!

See you on the flip side guys! Hope you'll still read my blog, though. HAHA!

Excruciated Repeatedly

2009-11-18T20:42:00.001+08:00

How would you feel if the man you love keeps on trading you for an ONLINE GAME? Will you feel worthless? Will you feel unimportant? Will you feel picayune? Because I know I would. Why wouldn't I, I've been experiencing this roughly everyday of my life!

It really hurts me to feel that a game might be more important than me. I mean I know I'm more important than life. But if the game is more important than me, it must be more important than GOD! (Hyperbolically speaking.)

I couldn't tell him this, though. You all know I have issues in opening up. But still, he should have at least realized by now how anguished I am. He does this anon and anon again. It sucks!

Hm, I think I've showed my umbrage, right? I know its wrong to rant him on my blog but I just couldn't tell all these personally. I think I'm letting my blog do the talking. Do you think that's right? Gosh, I think it's not.

Here's the question now. Should I stop someone for doing what he loves? I mean, do I have the right to do so? Because I think I'll be hurting him so much if I take away his gaming hobby. Its like taking away his oxygen. I don't want to suffocate him and kill him slowly. Its not right. I guess I must do what caring partners do. Be a martyr and understand his hobby. As a lover, I must satisfy his needs. And I must withstand the excruciating pain his hobby does to my frail heart. Yepp! Gotta follow this. . .

Mixed Genres

2009-11-18T19:25:00.000+08:00

I've been addicted to so many songs like Fireflies, The River Flows In You, Tik Tok, I Can Tell and so many more. You could really tell how broad my knowledge is when it comes to music. You could also tell how open-minded I am to different genres.

I could not live a day without listening to a single song. Meaning, I would resort to any genre if I dun music. I think this is the reason why I've become an ultimate music lover. Just name a genre and I you guarantee that I can enumerate at least five songs in that certain genre. HAHA!

Another useless post made moi! LOL!

Candid Moments

2009-11-17T17:09:00.002+08:00

Today is our 3rd monthsarry, but we could not spend it together because of their retreat. DAMN!

Anyway, because of that expected fact, we celebrated it by spending a candid afternoon at my crib. That's right, CANDID. Nothing more, nothing less. HAHA!

But because of our candid afternoon yesterday, we were able to know each other more. We both saw our sensitive sides and our weirdness in an angle we both can see. We weren't talking on the phone nor texting. We were in our room talking, JUST talking. :D

But even if we spent that afternoon together, I still missed him today. I miss him still, actually. I couldn't take the fact that they have to be isolated at Tagaytay City for a religious activity. I just hope he doesn't hug anyone there. Especially the girls that lift the temperature of Volcano Jealous Heart of Mine. If only I was with them. DAMN!

I just wish that after their retreat, he'll come to see my true value. HAHA! I think he is starting to realize how important I really am in his life. I just hope that my thoughts are true! HAHA!

BTW, congratulate us! Its our 3rd month of being together! HAHA! Wish us more monthsarries to come, okay? HAhA

:D

Maybe

2009-11-12T17:29:00.002+08:00

I've been rejected by a certain someone a couple of times. I'm not sure if he really wants to be with me or his just with me for show.

If you like to be with someone special, you would do anything, whether or not you have cash or you've got something to do, just to be with that someone. But if you're not too crazy about being with that someone, one reason for you not to go and you'll just give up in finding a way. He has been doing this the whole month! Ergo, I believe he doesn't want to be with me or his just not that crazy about being with me.

Because of what he is currently doing, my mind kept leading me into different conclusions, bad conclusions. It led me to crying, too. Its not that I'm becoming pessimistic again. I just couldn't help it. Who knows! Its probably true, anyway. *sighs. . .*

Maybe he just doesn't like me, or love me. Maybe he is busy. Maybe I'm just his girlfriend for show. Maybe he is busy. WAAH! Damn maybe's!

:D

Beguiled

2009-11-11T17:32:00.004+08:00

This afternoon, I became pretty disappointed because our team lost in a volleyball match. It was really frustrating. To think that I even escaped to cheer for the guys playing. Anyway, at least they did their best, right? Its not like they lost intentionally. There's always a chance to redeem themselves.

To make myself feel better, I've been listening to tons of classical music by Mozart, Beethoven, Rachmaninoff, Debussy, Chopin, Yiruma and Schubert. I know what you're thinking. "What?! Nese?! The chick who has nothing but rock music in her playlist?! Listening to all these?!". I'm right, am I? HAHA!

See, you're all starting to get to know me now. I usually beguile myself through listening to classical music. I started listening to it since I was in gradeschool. My interest for classical music is known only by a few people.

You wanna know what I feel when I listen to this? I feel light, happy, relaxed and I actually feel smarter everytime I listen to it. You should try listening to it, too. Believe me, its not just for old people. Its for everyone! Classical Music is healthy for your mind and soul. HAHA!

:D

Fade to Black

2009-11-10T17:54:00.004+08:00

Because of all the agony I've experienced, I'm starting to become heartless. I guess blogging doesn't help me that much. I'm not mad at anyone, though. Its just that, my heart is slowly fading to black.

There are a lot of things I couldn't tell to anyone, not even my closest friends. Like the pain I feel every time people say that me and my boyfriend are not right for each other. Or people just bullying me for no reason. I guess I'm pretty ill-fated.

I know people aren't mind readers to know what I think and feel. I just couldn't afford another misjudgment because of my feelings. I don't want to be selfish and grab their attention because I feel pain or something. Although, because of that want, I'm starting to lose it.

Do you know the feeling of being unwanted? Well, that's what I keep feeling to everyone. Even my boyfriend! I guess he just likes DOTA better than me. Or his just not crazy about me like I am to him. Crap! My life's so discombobulating!

Because of these, I couldn't think of any possible thing that could make my life better. All I could do is be a total tomfoolery for me not to think about all these. I guess that's why I'm like a narcotic bitch most of the time.

I guess this is the reason why I fear opening up, because of misjudgments. Because I don't want people to think I want all eyes on me. I just want to live a life inconspicuously. But like I said, I couldn't take living in closed doors anymore. I just want to let every emotion out! I'm about to explode! And I don't think blogging is the key from keeping me from exploding.

:D

The Typical Spouse

2009-11-06T17:05:00.002+08:00

Hm, I love my boyfriend but there's something missing. I meant a lot are missing. Its not that I'm not satisfied, its just that he sometimes act like he doesn't care.

For starters, we rarely be with each other. We see each other almost everyday but we rarely talk. I guess its a bit my fault because I don't want to be seen with a guy at school almost all the time. There are just a lot of mouths there. Words can spread fast. Its like the school will be watching a true-to-life sope opera if they see us together. But still, we rarely talk!

Next, when its time for us to be with each other outside the school premisses, he usually trades that time to play that infamous computer game, DOTA. I get really pissed when this happens.

Third, when we text, he usually falls asleep. I mean I always trade my textmates for him but he trades me for his beauty rest. Ego, much?

Fourth, when his with me, he teases me and say I'm ugly. I mean I mind a little tease but he does this all the time! WAH!

But I must admit, after all this, he's still the most important guy in my life. I guess I just have to deal with all these. Who knows, he might realize and be more nice to me. HAHA! Kidding!

:D

LSS

2009-11-05T19:35:00.002+08:00

Two Is Better Than One
Boys Like Girls Feat. Taylor Swift

I remember what you wore on the first day
You came into my life
And I thought hey
You know this could be something
'Cause everything you do and words you say
You know that it all takes my breath away
And now I'm left with nothing

So maybe it's true, that I can't live without you
Maybe two is better than one
But There's so much time, to figure out the rest of my life
And you've already got me coming undone
And I'm thinking two, is better than one

I remember every look upon your face,
The way you roll your eyes, the way you taste
You make it hard for breathing
'Cause when I close my eyes and drift away
I think of you and everythings okay
And finally now, believing

And maybe it's true, that I can't live without you
Well maybe two is better than one
But there's so much time, to figure out the rest of my life
And you've already got me coming undone
And I'm thinking two, is better than one

Yeah, yeah

I remember what you wore on the first day
You came into my lifeAnd I thought hey

Maybe it's true, that I can't live without you
Maybe two is better than one
But there's so much time, to figure out the rest of my life
And you've already got me coming undone
And I'm thinking
Oooh
I can't live without you
'Cause baby two is better than one
There's so much time, to figure out the rest of my life
And I've figured out with all that's said and done
Two, is better than one

Two is better than one

Okay, its a pretty cheezy song but I absolutely love! I've been addicted to this song since right before the typhoon. I just couldn't stop thinking about it! It keeps entering my mind and then I'll just start singing it and after awhile, I'll find a way to listen to it! I've never been obssessed to a certain song for this long. I rarely even write a post about songs. I think this is the first time I've done this for my blog. This shows how addicted I got because of this song. I guess I just could relate to a song about relationships because its been about two years before I got my current boyfriend. Maybe this is what love can do to a person. Man! I love to LOVE! HAHA

:D

Narcotic B*tch

2009-11-05T19:10:00.004+08:00

Just so you know, I don't take drugs. Its just that there were a lot of events today wherein I was like one. I think I have a psychological problem or being grounded just drives me crazy!!

Here are some proofs that I was a bit narcotic. First, when I knew the tagalog word for web or "sapot", I started mimicking spiderman when he needs a web and shouting "SAPOT! SAPOT!". Sounds ridiculous, huh? Well, it is. . . When I realized that this was what I've been doing, I said, "Am I really crazy? Deeem!"

Second, I was doing model posts for no reason! I guess I was just imagining that there was a camera in front of me but there was none. Looks like my vainess has given me another reason to think I'm crazy. HAHA!

Third, I was dancing this tribal dance even if there's no music! BTW, it was in the middle of our math class! Wow, I'm crazy. I think I really did take drugs today, I just couldn't remember! HAHA!

Hm, there have been more times wherein I saw how crazy I am, its just too embarassing to announce it in the World Wide Web! Hey, before I end this post, I must say "SAPOT! SAPOT!". HAHA! Wow, I am a crazy bitch! HAHA!

:D

A String to CUT

2009-11-04T20:14:00.000+08:00

Can a true friend really be fatigue of your stories? Of your misfortunes? I know a person can be fatigued, but a true friend will fight that fatigue and listen to whatever her friend can tell.

I don't know if her fatigue is the real reason on why she doesn't want to talk to me, but either way, I think she just wants to cut the string of our friendship. Or maybe she just wants to be alone. I don't know. I'm just bewildered right now. Totally discombobulated.

Gosh, I wish I could talk to her, but she just cut every communication we have. I think its best if I just part ways with her. This has happened a lot of times, anyway. But I still want to fix this. WAH! What should I do?! INH!! PLEASE!!

Sorry for the stupid post. Its just that, this is where I release every emotion I have. Even those I had. Gotta go guys!!! The guards are here.

:D

Battered Butterfly

2009-11-04T16:50:00.000+08:00

A butterfly was locked in a lasting cage. But last night, that butterfly had a taste of freedom. She was able to set out in a journey wherein she was forbidden to go. She had to escape from that nerve-wrecking dungeon, of course. Her position was unbearable. But like any other creature that experiences freedom for the first time after a long time, she abused it.

That butterfly had a few drinks with her friends. She got drunk, too. When it was time to give up freedom once more, she went back to her cage before the guards notice she's gone.

She was getting closer and closer, putting a closure to her short freedom. She didn't want it to end, but she just had to. Although, before she could even enter the cage inconspicuously, she was caught by two of the guards.

They beat her up, slapped her in the face, punched her in her tummy, tear her wing by wing. She was helpless. All she could do was to cry. The guards had no mercy. After being battered for awhile, they kicked her in that dungeon. She pleaded never to put her back in. They didn't listen to her, of course. They ignored her every anguished shouts and agonizing pleads. She cried out all the water in her body and bled every drop of blood she had. She was dying, slowly. But they didn't have to kill her. Putting her in that cage once more was ending her slightly regained life. She entered the cage, hoping that they won't break another limb of hers. The guards locked the cage and threw the key. All she can do now is to wait for her to lose her breath and perish or to wait for her destined savior. Till then, it was all over.

The battered butterfly is still waiting. Waiting either to perish or for someone to free her. Will you let her life end or will you find the key and set her free. . .

:D--:

Rightful Punishments

2009-10-31T15:46:00.000+08:00

Remember my case at school? Now, I know what the school is about to do to me. I might be suspended for at least three days. I might not be an honour guard anymore. I might have a C conduct....

I don't want to care about the punishments but I'm graduating. Its gonna be difficult for me to be accepted at prestigous colleges if i have a C in my conduct. Just wish me luck though.

:D--:

A Little Less Sixteen Candles

2009-10-31T15:31:00.000+08:00

October 08, 2009, I celebrated my 16th birthday. I pretended not to care but it was my saddest yet. No friends were with me to celebrate. Only my boyfriend was able to call me just to greet. Two of my friends were able to text me because they know my sister's number. I didn't have a cellphone that time so.

Lights went out that night, too. I didn't want to celebrate it at home so me and my family went out instead. We were still trying to recover from the damage caused by the typhoon so budget's a bit short for my parents. I didn't have a gift from them. Although, they were able to give me the cake I want. Its just too bad that my birthday was during the recovery of victims.

When everything was fine, we went back to school. My friends started greeting me. They said they greeted me but I wasn't able to read. I didn't have a cellphone! Well, at least it uplifted my spirit to know that some actually care about me. LOL!!

:D

Gone In Minutes

2009-10-31T14:14:00.001+08:00

September 25, 2009, friday. Me and my classmates had a drinking session at a friend's house. I got drunk, of course, which is why I wasn't able to notice that it was already raining. Luckily, I went home safely.

September 26, 2009, saturday, 7:00am. I was on my way to school but the streets of our village was no longer passable due to flood. I wasn't able to go so I went back home and slept. I woke up around 11:30 pm and the water was rising in our street. All of us weren't expecting the flood but unfortunately, 15minutes later, it entered our house. I was texting my boyfriend that time but our conversation was cut short because the reception disappeared. We started lifting our things that might get wet but the water was still rising. The water reached upto my waist inside the rooms.

We no longer have a choice but to vacate our home. We locked every door and got a few clothes to spare. We also got some expensive gadgets we were afraid to lose. We stayed at a neighbor's house for the night while the water submerged. Lights were out, of course. There was no electricity and communication. We didn't know what was out there. We were complete castaways.

The next day, we had to clean every inch of visible mud in the house. For about two weeks, this was all we did. Two of our cars were destroyed, two computers, every wood in the house, and our year-old tiles. We also literally had nothing to eat.

Well, that's my typhoon story. BTW, its my first time to experience flood. I never thought it was this hard. Life has taught me a lesson. Its to value everything I have, no matter how useless this thing is. I learned it the hard way.

:D--:

Catching Up

2009-10-31T14:05:00.000+08:00

Since I haven't posted almost a thing, we're gonna do some serious catching up. Tons have happened this october like the typhoon, my birthday, some other crappy stuff, and halloween! I'm obviously not gonna squeeze all of it in just one post. I'll be organized so that no one will be confused.

You'll see in the later posts almost every mischiefs and laughs I have experienced this month.

So, I'll no longer prolong this post. Let's just cut to the chase and I'll start posting my experiences this october, okay?

:D

Dilemmas

2009-10-25T19:41:00.000+08:00

Hey guys! Sorry if I haven't been posting anything for the past few weeks. Lost internet connection due to typhoon Ondoy which really sucks. Being grounded without internet is total crap.

Wanna crappy news about Ondoy? Well, we lost two of our computers and two of our cars. No internet connection. We have a damaged house and this event will scar me for life. Nice isn't it?

So I just updated my blog. I'm pretty busy right now so bye for now!

Drinking Nostalgia

2009-09-24T18:54:00.000+08:00

I admit it, I miss drinking!! Getting drunk and tasting alcohol constantly is what I miss the most!!!

Its been awhile since I last tasted that tempting, bittersweet alcohol. Ever since we became together, I never got drunk or taste at least a drop of beer.

Okay, so maybe I'm trying to control my drinking habit, I still want to drink! Maybe I'll try not to be drunk? Nah, its the fun part of drinking! HAHA!

I maybe trying to be that responsible girl like before, but I still want to do wild things, bitchy things. So now I want to ask every person who reads my blog, WHO WANTS TO GET DRUNK?! Even if I'm grounded, I'll try to make plans. Just please let me be drunk! I really miss it! HAHA!

:D

All In The Dirt

2009-09-24T18:40:00.000+08:00

Today, I realized that I'm no longer slacking off! Although my boyfriend still keeps reminding me to be responsible.

Anyway, I submitted all requirements that are needed to be submitted today! Which is really cool because usually, I submit after the deadline.

Right now, I'm trying to redeem myself--and be the girl who was at the top of her class just like before. I know it sounds a bit like Zuko (From Avatar: The Last Airbender), but at least now, I'm trying.

Good News, Bad News Moment:

Good News- I'm finally becoming more responsible!
Bad News- I might get a suspension. :|

So, the girl from last trimester is slowly fading into oblivion. She's slowly being thrown in the dirt. The old me is finally waking up!

:D

The Inner Slut

2009-09-23T18:26:00.000+08:00

In my batch, the more angelic you are, the more attractive you can be. But, on the contrary, this statement is a big LIE.

Ever since we turned seniors, I've been hearing a lot of "angels" losing their "wings" (virginity) with their "spouse". I won't mention any names, though. Some of them might be another rumor, anyway.

Don't worry, I'm not one of this angels. I'm a bitch, remember? But I'm also a virgin. Weird huh? The angels actually have a hidden personality. They are actually sluts.

I must admit, I know a lot about sex. But I don't apply my knowledge. I'm actually disgusted at some girls who do fellatio (blow job). Besides, I'm a virgin, 100%! This bitch has never been touched. I'm reserving it for my future husband, anyway. HAHA!

BTW, I'm not mad at the so called "angels". They're still my friends. No matter how slutty they can get, its fine with me. I totally accept them--and love them!

If you're curious or intrigued to know who this angels might be, I'm totally not gonna tell. I maybe a bitch but I'm not a traitor. I don't rat anyone out.

Tell me your reaction. Add me up at YM, evilshadow_ryne. I'm always online.

:D

Angels and Demons

2009-09-22T21:03:00.000+08:00

Cigarettes are really big traitors. Now, I am sanctioned of being grounded for the rest of the year for a sin I never actually committed. No, this is the right thing to do. I did this. I did something. I was supposed to do something. This might be the rightful punishment.

I was asked to choose my friends wisely. Its kinda a grown-up way of saying "STAY AWAY FROM BRUSKO!". I admit, I chose devious friends. But it was my choice to agree in the first place. Or is it? I'm not an angel myself, anyway. But I guess my daddy's asking me to get angels as friends. BORING!!

Anyway, the prophecy in my earlier post didn't come true. I wasn't beaten up, which is a good thing. But still, grounded for the rest of the year?! Hello! Its my last year as a high school bitch. Can't I at least get a few taste of freedom?! Damn.

"Not a Happy Birthday.", these words he uttered repeatedly. I don't care about my birthday anyway. Who wants to get old?

BTW, I'm not mocking anyone here. I'm just pissed about some things he uttered. I'm also pissed about following Brusko. But I don't blame anybody. Although, seriously, I regret everything! But there's no turning back. I have to face this like the biggest bitch in town. Its time to release my inner bitch. But, I'm still nervous, and frightened, and scared, and in hysteria, and depressed.

So the earlier post isn't my last post, which is a good thing. He didn't tell me that I wasn't allowed to go online anyway! LOL!

This is pretty much a good news for me. I think? Half of it I guess. LOL!

See you again guys!

:D

The Stick With Smoke

2009-09-22T18:34:00.001+08:00

Cigarette. An invention that caused many lives. Not only by stealing lives. But also by ruining them.

I was once a smoker. But I stopped a long time ago. I didn't want to do it anymore. But still, these sticks haunt me up to this day.

It was the last day of exams. My friend, naming "Brusko", wanted to smoke after eating. He asked me to join him. I refused a couple of times, but he wouldn't stop insisting. I agreed after a long debate. But I was hesitant to come.

He bought two sticks, one for each of us. He gave me my stick, but I was hiding it. He lighted his stick. He started inhaling it. A few seconds later, a teacher said "What are you doing?! Naka-uniform pa kayo ah!"--What are you doing? You're still in uniform!-- and I started to shiver of fear. Yes, this is the event I'm afraid will happen. For this to come to the School Board and suspend us both. I wasn't smoking, but I was holding a stick. In our school handbook, it was stated that "Smoking in campus or within 100 meters from the school while wearing a uniform is a Class C offense. Possessing cigarettes is considered as a violation." and I, myself, have read it.

In every offense, there's a punishment. The punishment for this one is a three-day suspension and an automatic grade of C in conduct. Obviously, I didn't mind what the school might say. I was worried about what my parents would say or do.

Now, I'm a basket case. I'm freaking out. Every bone, every limb of mine is trembling like crazy! Its not because of the offense. Its because of what my father could do. He beats me up when he gets really pissed. Tonight's gonna be a gruesome night.

BTW, this MIGHT be my last post for september. I might be grounded for this. I just hope they won't beat me up. Cross your fingers, guys!

:D---:|---:{

To My Clique

2009-09-20T21:22:00.000+08:00

A poem written, of course, to my peers. It was intended to be written for the school newspaper. I just hope they accept it.

I don't know if its that good. I rarely write a poem that's about other things but love. I really hope you like it.

To My Clique

Fond when we’re together

We own the world

Laughing like it’s the end of forever

To ourselves we’re enamored

Although sometimes we bicker

We sort our conflict accord

Nothing can turn us bitter

Not even the sharpest sword

Frivolous jeers we make

To each other we laugh out loud

For a good time is a good break

But together we still stand proud

Foes try to break our friendship

But none stand tall enough

To sink our backer ship

Yes, our friendship is forever

No one and nothing can tear us

We shall always stick together

And we won’t try to fuss

It describes us being together all the time. Even at times of sadness. When we're together, we're happy even if we don't have a bottle of beer. Hope you like it.

:D

09-19-09

2009-09-20T21:08:00.000+08:00

The day I lived with no sleep. I was mourning all night, pretty much acting like a fool. All I did was write poems. Pretty melodramatic poems to be exact.

This day, we had CAT. I looked like I was drunk. Patiently waiting for someone I thought might ignore me. He didn't, of course. But I thought he would. And I shouldn't tell you why.

When he came, I thought he was gonna ignore me. He didn't. I was ecstatic. But I still didn't get any sleep. I dozed off a few seconds between discussions. I couldn't help it. I kept glancing at him, too. I even caught him glancing a couple of times.

The whole day, we were together. At lunch, during platoon formation, and going home. We were sweet, too! I liked this day. But, of course, I wanted to sleep so badly.

I got home and fell asleep. I didn't even notice that I was able to eat dinner and change. I woke up with my t-shirt and shorts at my back. LOL! Good thing no one noticed.

:D

Emo-Poetic

2009-09-20T20:27:00.000+08:00

No, I'm not emo. I just wrote some poems that are pretty melodramatic. It was a friday night. I had nothing to do and I couln't sleep. Yep. You guessed it. I got no sleep at all.

So here are some poems. Two actually. I was busy watching MTV. Oh and uhm, I was mourning that night. I guess that's why my poems are pretty emo that night. LOL!

Save Me From Anxiety

Yet I cry another tear
That flows because of fear
Yes, I am afraid
For no one can give me shade
From whatever might be coming
That is ever so frightening

But you're supposed to be
Near me and give glee
Cheer me in my frowns
Lift me from my downs
Wipe my tears
Shield me from my fears

But you left me
Don't you love me?
You said you do
But why keep me so blue?

Is leaving an option?
For me to function?
For you it is not
You chose the door to shut

When will you come back?
When I no longer slack?
But you're not the reason for my failure
For you made me allure
You give me joy and happiness
So save me from my malevolence

(Written around 3:00 am.)

Too Morbid

No one sees me cry
With these tears I try
To let out all my disdains
And all emotional pains

As quiet as can be
So no shadow can see
What really is inside
My hurtful feelings that abide

One more song
A sad and long
I hear from my radio
By which my tears show

I need him desperately
But where is he?
Asleep with no worries
No nightmares and fears

I am tired of this
No hug nor kiss
Was given from you
To know you're farewell's true

I love you, of course
I love you with no force
By other people's bribes
Just from my heart's advice

You're my sanctuary
By whom abandoned me
Since my love will never fade
For you, I'll sulk in the rain with no shade

(Written around 5:00 am.)

So uhm, this is pretty much it. They're only two but quite long. A bit melodramatic, too. I was crying all night. Could not get my mind off things. That's why I wasn't able to sleep a wink.

Thanks for reading it guys! See you again on my next post!

:D

Haiku

2009-09-18T20:56:00.000+08:00

Gosh, its my fifth post for the night. I think my September blog is over-flowing. I hope not. LOL!

So this is a haiku I made during AP class. I got bored so I started writing this. Its a good thing that this is just a haiku or else I couldn't have done the across sticks for the word "PAGGAWA". HAHA. Here it is.

Not a cruel word
Was heard from his cruel mouth
He has changed for me.

I know, pretty amateur. I wasn't that concentrated anyway. Besides, it has nothing to do with me. He still says bad words, anyway. HAHA!

BTW, sorry if I keep posting. Blogging is just too addictive. HAHA! I might not be blogging for a long time anyway because something bad might happen. Something that can ruin my life. HAHA! I'll just try to laugh it out, okay? I don't want to be pessimistic and gloomy. I just hope nothing horrible can happen.

:D

Fuck Off Dota

2009-09-18T20:40:00.000+08:00

The infamous DOTA. An online game wherein guys become accord and have fun. But at the same time, make them too addicted. The reason why it ruins their love affairs and academics.

At first DOTA was fine for me. It didn't affect me at all. Then I started loving a DOTA-addict. I became furious at this game. Why? He usually makes more time for the game itself than being with me. So I stopped playing it. I tried to bribe him to stop, but he wouldn't listen. Sometimes, we even stop chatting for him to play dota. Most girls see my dilemma. A lot can really relate.

Since I know he wouldn't listen, I just stop trying to bribe him. I would just look like a fool anyway. But obviously, I am now an Anti-DOTA. I don't want to tell him though. He might say that I'm taking away his only hobby. Its sorta like that anyway. I don't want to look selfish or something. Besides, I want him to be happy. If this is the only thing that makes his day, then why stop him, right?

But one tip for the guys. Try to avoid DOTA. Its useless and it ruins people.

:D

Paranoid: You Drive Me Crazy

2009-09-18T19:40:00.000+08:00

Callous? I think you're not. But I know I am. Should I be? Or should I not? All I know is that my euphoric feeling disappeared. Why you say? I entered a guilt trip, of course.

Now, I know it's my fault. It's always my fault. My shameless words and callous heart caused everything.

Is it over? I hope not. But every horrible feeling has now lingered in me. It won't go away. Now added tons more disdains. But one wish is what i want you to fulfill. Please stop playing and speak up. I'm now worried of what's going on.

Is it just paranoia? This feeling that lingers inside? Or are you really mad. Please don't. I don't want you to. But I'm hoping you're not.

Please be decisive. Are you mad or not? If you are then I'm sorry. But if not, is that the truth? I'm always in doubt when you say you're not. I guess I am paranoid.

Is there something to be mad at? Of course, there is. I am stupid, reckless, irresponsible, lazy, callous, uncaring, frail, boring, immature, flirty and a tramp. So now I ask, why do you love me? You say you do, right?

Shit. A tear. Am I crying? Or is it just another dust in my eye. Yes, I'm crying. No, wait! I'm not. Fuck. I'm in denial. Are you confused? I'm sorry, I'm hot and cold.

You kissed me. So you're not mad? How come you didn't answer clearly? Was I being paranoid? Yes, I was. I'm sorry.

So now we're fine I guess. Let's never fight again. I freaking love you!

He Put A Ring On It

2009-09-18T18:54:00.000+08:00

Yepp. Yesterday was THE DAY, our first monthsary. Everything was surreal. Except of course for a sight I never thought I would see my entire life. But never mind that. Let's mind what happened the days before and the day itself. haha!

The days before were the hardest. I had to make tons of photoshop collages to earn money. To earn money for a gift to be given to him. After all those tiring clicking, I was able to earn enough money to pay some loans and buy him a gift. I bought him a T-shirt which was a wrong decision for me. It was a rushed gift anyway. I could not find a perfume with an excellent fragrance! I'm not really good when it comes to choosing gifts.

The day itself was surreal. A lot were greeting me, some were cursing, and some were pretty much bitter. Then at night, we chilled at my crib for awhile then went out afterwards. A shooting for a series was being held near our "SPOT" which almost destroyed my surreal night of course. Tons of lights were there! How could I see the stars?

So anyway, I was looking away, pretending to watch the shooting going on nearby. When I looked back, my left ring finger had a ring! I was ecstatic! But it should've been worn in the right, right? So he repeated the process, this time by kneeling down. I think I blushed, I'm not sure? But my smile was reaching up to my ears! HAHA!

After that, we walked and walked and walked. Then I decided to give him my gift, of course. He thought it was shoes! How could I blame him, I put the shirt in a shoe box and placed tons of trash in it. Of course he was fooled at first sight. HAHA!

After all that, we walked and walked and walked some more. We were talking, of course. But still, after a month of being together, we still haven't had that tongue-to-tongue kiss. Sounds ludicrous huh? But hey, it was one of my best nights. We rarely be together anyway. It was freaking awesome!

:D

Vulnerable

2009-09-18T17:48:00.000+08:00

Yes, vulnerable. I have no shield to protect me from daggers. Insulting words that now cause the bleeding of my frail heart. Is it caused by the man I love? Definitely not. It's caused by the sharp insulting words some of my peers say to the man I love. What should I do? I am stupid when it comes to opening up. I can't tell how I really feel when they insult him. I am offended, I must admit. But no anger is being filled in my heart. It just really hurt most of the time.

"Why were you even allured by him? He is stupid, lazy, irresponsible, irritating, and rude.", these words I hear from my peers' mouth. I could not defend him of course. I'm too weak to speak my mind. But not all say such harsh words. Some definitely understand me. They even admire me for not being vindictive. But some thoughts always ponder in me. Do I agree? Yes, I agree in every word. But I love and accept his true self. I guess they can't understand that.

But if there's one insult I would never agree to is, "He doesn't even care about you. Why bother care? Why bother love, Nese?". How can they know what he really does? They don't even see us when we're together. All I can say is that, everyone's a critic. A judge who judges with false evidences. As for me, I am a useless lawyer. I could not defend him, or myself. I just let everything come in my mind then I can't stop thinking about it. No one can protect me because he doesn't even know about this. I could not speak up for I'm not brave enough. Yes, I'm a coward. That's it. The reason why I'm vulnerable. Vulnerable in every angle of my heart. I am dying of pain. Tired of insults. Sick of being a coward. Should I speak up now? Or wait for me to burst up into flames. I guess we'll just see. If all these continues.

:D----:|

Missing You

2009-09-13T18:18:00.001+08:00

I know its melodramatic. I just made this because I'm really in love at the verse I made. It was taken from my poem "Regrets". You can find it at one of the posts at August 2009. You can check it if you want.

That's all really. Just dropping by.

Nostalgic

2009-09-11T21:20:00.000+08:00

Yet another night without him beside me. I really wish he will be. I wonder when that will happen? I mean we rarely be with each other. Why else would I be feeling this way? I really miss him! This feeling is shit!

HAHA! Told you my next post will be posted in a matter of minutes! I don't know why but I'm being addicted in blogging again.

Anyway, need some shuteye. I think I'm off to dreamland. I'll just read a few notes before going to bed though. And do a bit of homework for HIM! LOL! Like I said, its voluntary. HAHA! Good night guys! Read my blog again okay?

:D

Sick Bed

2009-09-11T21:08:00.000+08:00

A sick bed indeed. My house is swarming with fever victims because of the rain. Now I am also infected, although its not that bad.

Rain, rain, rain. The best weather for a morbid princess. But its also her worse. Rain is my favorite weather because my skin doesn't get that reddish. The bad side of this is I have low immunity. I get sick easily. But the disease that's spreading in the house didn't start from me. It started from my dad. He gets really sick like hell. He keeps on sneezing everywhere. I guess that's how the fever causing virus spread.

Almost everyone in the house is infected. I don't know why but I kinda like being sick. Its an excuse for me to be cared for. I rarely get cared for. It kinda feels like I never get cared for. Wow! I miss the tasty of yummy attention! HAHA! But I'm not trying to grab it okay? I just want to have it like everyone else. I'm not that desperate!

That's it guys. Gotta review and do some homeworks for my boyfriend. Don't worry. Me doing his homeworks is a voluntary act. I am indeed a good Samaritan. HAHA!

Till next time guys!(Which will be in a few minutes.,LOL!)

:D

Evolutionary Mind

2009-09-11T17:47:00.000+08:00

Yepp! You got it! I'm starting to become mature! No longer the clumsy childish girl you know. My mind is evolutionizing from a child to a real adolescent! My mind is becoming a bit more astute. Wanna know why? Well, I was able to commute via train until Mendiola! BTW, its pretty damn far. Going there is like hell!! Too many people everywhere! It's total crap trust me. But hey, I came home in one piece. That's an achievement!

So instead of reviewing here at home, I went to Mendiola with some friends to apply for San Beda College. That school is so unbelievable! It's like Hogwarts! Everything there rocks! From the cafeteria to uniform. It gets better! I also found out that they have BS Legal Management. It sorta kept pondering in my head last year. That's the course I might be taking there. LOL!

Anyway, I'm just pretty proud to say I'm getting more mature. Although I was sorta clumsy there. I tripped a couple of times. But it was totally fun! Awesome experience. It's my first time to reach a place that far via train. It pretty rocks! I even saw some college friends. Kinda miss them. HAHA!

That's just about it guys! See you again in my next post! It might be minutes from now. LOL!!

:D

To End Our Day...

2009-09-10T20:09:00.000+08:00

A verse I made on the spot to bid my volatile farewell. Clearly I will miss him again. How I wish I could sleep beside him every night.... **sighs**

I will miss your sweet words
It blushed all worlds
With your tender goodbye
I'll sleep with sighs

Freaking in love! Good night guys!

Morbid Confessions

2009-09-10T17:41:00.001+08:00

Yipee!!Starting to become addicted at blogging again. My hands are like lightning, constantly typing at a very high speed!!Keyboard's heating up. Ears pumping. Head bursting. Hyperventilating. I wanna confess everything!

You so my update right? I only posted that a few minutes ago. I said that my feeling are being mixed with isolation, guilt, love and joy. It's true. But despite all those feelings, I have others ocked in my chest. Morbid feelings.

Now playing: Die Romantic- Aiden. Pretty emo I guess but this song is the reason why I want every morbid feeling to burst from its shell. One is that I lack trust for myself. I feel like I couldn't pass the first trimestral exams. But I can't blame anyone for this. Clearly I've been slacking off.

Next, I've been feeling nostalgic for no reason. I feel like something's missing and I can't seem to find out what. But I know I am complete with everything I need. This must be a want.

Third, I wanna confess that I wanna be a FIELD JOURNALIST! Ever since I was a kid I wanted to become a field journalist, but my parents always disagree. They say its too
dangerous and there's no money in this job. Hello!? I don't care if I get money or not, I want to be a fucking journalist! Forgive me for the harsh word. I've been wanting to let that out. I feel like I don't have freedom here because they're only letting me choose between medical courses or a law courses. I don't want any man! Can't you understand that?!

Fourth, I don't want my friends to hang out here anymore. Its just too much worries. Its kinda tiring giving them food all the time. I'm running out of cash! Damn! BTW, I don't clean the house so it gets really tiring when they mess it up!

Fifth, I'm a fool when it comes to handling money. I've been wasting all my cash in useless things instead of buying stuffs for my projects. Right now, I'm trying to save money for our first monthsary and I'm not sure if I can give him a gift! Do you see my dilemma?

Last, I feel like my pride is too high or I'm just shy of saying sorry. Either way, I'm losing some of my friends. Right now, I feel like I'm trapped in a box of sharp objects! Do you know how hard that is?! Its total crap!

Now you know my problems. I just want to let everything out. Thanks for giving me the freedom to do so. Till next time! Gonna do vectors in my dark room again. HAHA

:D

Mediocre Times

2009-09-10T17:06:00.000+08:00

Hey guys!! Sorry if I haven't been posting for awhile, been busy doing NOTHING! LOL!

Want an update? Well, my life has been mixed with isolation, guilt, love and joy! Pretty confusing, I know. BTW, I've been open to new things these past few days so I haven't been blogging so much.

My lovelife is fine, believe me. We just don't show it in public. Its just that I hate people who's always making up rumors about us constantly. We never had a tongue-to-tongue kiss. He doesn't know how. Just wanna clear that up.

Friends, not so good. I'm becoming attached to my classmates, but somehow being detatched to some of my friends. Someone is even mad at me for a mistake I clearly can't get! But anyway, I don't blame her for anything. I pretty much blame myself constantly. I just hope she understands me!

Academics, totally slacking off! I haven't pass most of my requirements! I don't even take my reviewing seriously. BTW, tomorrow's physics exam and I don't know a damn thing! Some of my friends were here awhile ago and we were suppose to review. But instead, we just hang out and messed up my room. And instead of reviewing, I'm listening to music, making vectors, blogging and chatting all at the same time! It's a good thing I have two hands or I can never do all these things at once. LOL!

Well, I guess that's about it. I'm trying to get use of writing short posts so that I can balance my time and so that you won't get hard up reading. HAHA! Hope you like my useless post!

Courting 101

2009-08-28T17:23:00.000+08:00

Is it your first time to court a girl? Do you know the do's and donts' of courting? Do you really want the girl to say yes? If your answers are yes, no, and yes, you've come to the right place!

Here's you're basic guide to courting a girl you really like, or love!

Courting Tip #1:
Be sure of what you really feel. Make sure you really like the girl before courting her because it would hurt her feelings if you're in doubt. Even if she doesn't like you. Do not court her if you're just gonna use her to have a sex life or to be popular.

Courting Tip #2:
Ask before you court. It will make the girl look stupid and naive if you don't tell her you intentions, or even ask about it. Don't be shy to admit it. Most girls don't like shy guys.

Courting Tip #3:
If she allowed you, go on to the next tip. If she didn't, just move on and don't hold grudges to the girl because it's not her fault. She clearly and honestly just doesn't like you. But there's always a second try right? Just don't force yourself too much.

Courting Tip #4:
Do not look for other girls to court, especially at the same time! It will make the girl furious! If you want to court her, make sure she's the only one you want.

Courting Tip #5:
Find ways to spend time with her. Even if she is the busiest person on Earth, make sure you support and be there for her. Maybe you might even get lucky when she comes home really late alone.

Courting Tip #6:
Try to flirt with her at times. Just make sure she thinks its okay or she might get really pissed.

Courting Tip #7:
Try to be the man of her dreams. But if you're just forcing yourself to be that man, rather not do it because you'll just look like a hypocrite and a liar.

Courting Tip #8:
Make her feel special at all times, even at her worst.

Courting Tip #9:
Do not force her to tell her answer. It doesn't matter how long you court the girl. Just be patient.

Courting Tip #10:
Make friends with her friends. It will make her be comfortable if her friends think they like you. But don't use her friends as her conscience telling her to say yes. It will really piss her off.

Courting Tip #11:
A girl is always right, even if you're right. Do not argue with the girl. Be modess enough to let her win the bicker. But if she adds more false stories, its time for you to put your foot down. Just don't be too harsh on the girl.

Courting Tip #12:
Accept her in any way. If she does something wrong in the span of your courting period, or even during the past, just accept it because if you really like her, you will do that.

Courting Tip #13:
Send her cute love notes or poems. Although it sounds cheezy, girls like it when guys are sweet. Its one of the reason why most girls fall for a guy. Unless of course the girl you like loves destruction and bloodshed more than cookies and strawberries.

Courting Tip #14:
Love what she loves to do. If you try loving them, you might actually get to know her better. She also likes talking about the things she loves to someone who can relate. Try to study her wants.

Courting Tip #15:
Be sensitive and conservative. Girls like these types of men. Give her gifts, just don't spend so much or she might lie of saying yes to you even if she doesn't like you. You don't want your first relationship to rely on lies right?

Courting Tip #16:
Suport her at all times. Even if the world already turned their backs on her, be sure you're still there. Be there in every competitions, challenges, and conflicts for her.

Courting Tip #17:
Abandon your bad habits. If you know the girl doesn't like some things you do, try to avoid doing them.

Courting Tip #18:
If the girl dumps you after a long period of courting, don't be mad. Courting is a stage wherein she decides if she really wants to be with you or not. Just be mad if she told you that she will say yes because she said a lie. Just move on and don't hold grudges. There are more girls there. Don't think that she's your last. If you don't want to give up, go back to Courting Tip #2.

Courting Tip #19:
DO NOT ASK HER TO HAVE SEX OR KISS YOU. No matter how long you've been courting her, never ask her this. The girl will feel that you're just using her to have a sex life, even if that's not the case. And even if the girl gives in, have the discipline not to continue because you might have regrets.

Courting Tip #20:
If you can't wait any longer, do the sweetest and unexpected proposal. If she says no, go back to Courting Tip #18. If she says not now, wait a little longer and do the propasal again or try a new way of proposing. If she says yes, have a long and happy relationship with the girl!

These are all the tips I could think of. All of these are based from my experiences. These are the things I saw and liked when some guys were courting me. But honestly, my current boyfriend didn't do all this things. I guess its just up to the girl.

If you have any reactions of justifications to some tips, just IM me at evilshadow_ryne@yahoo.com. Add me up and lets chat! You can even suggest additional tips if you want.

Hope you can benefit from my tips! Goodluck!

:D

Addictive Hands

2009-08-20T18:34:00.000+08:00

Here are poems I wrote for the past few days. Ever since I wrote the poem "Frailty's Tragedy", I can't help but write poems during classes or when I have nothing to do. Here they are...

She's Gone, My Fault

Bright as the sun
She lights up my day
With a smile of fun
I chose to stay

Her smile disappeared
That I most feared
Her feeling of jealousy
I felt her ludicrity

Her smile returned
Hugging me as I turn
Being as sweet as candy
I was blushing and happy

She's crying by the corner
Because I have no time for her
She's becoming absurd
For I was being tortured

I said "we're through"
I left her crying and blue
Now that I'm free
Her face I'll never see

Mulling over the past
I was thinking she was my last
Missing her sweet smile
Which I'll only see in pictures in a pile

(Written for a friend.)

Regrets

And yet another dusk
Twilight ends a day of tasks
But no face from you was seen
And a shoulder for me to lean

Missing you is difficult
Like a heart being struck by bolts
Your kiss, your hug, your gentle touch
I can not seek and so I crouch

Malevolence to myself
Feeling trapped in a shelf
For I can't utter the words "I LOVE YOU"
It just mull in my head that's blue

Time less spent
Regret which caused a dent
In my heart of misery
For missing you is agony

(It has no relation to my life. I just like to write something like this.)

Locked Love

Countless papers have been thrown
Pictures of you have been drawn
Have yet to perfect your face
That shines in the darkest days

Blissful words I want to hear
As loud and gentle and sweet and dear
But brick walls block your voice
And so listening to you is no longer a choice

Your mouth I never kiss
Not tasting it is an empty bliss
But what else can I do?
If I hug you, they might sue

Our love is locked in a chest
And they say it's for the best
The key is for them to be hidden
And for that our love is forbidden

(I'm really not suppose to have a boyfriend. :D)

August 17, 2009: No Longer Single

Serenity lights up my night
Everlasting love was in sight
Vowing his forever love
Ecstatic by the stars above
Never have I felt this way
True his love is here to stay
Encouraged by his sweet words
Engaged we are like shear and sword
No man will ever tear our world

(haha!!NO LONGER SINGLE)

That's just a few of what I've written. I can't put the others because I lost them. haha!! I guess I'll just right some more. Don't forget to leave comments!!

:D

Frailty's End

2009-08-10T19:20:00.000+08:00

"Scarred by the war
Only one made her smile
Walking down the car
She cried a tidal.

Full of thrill, she felt
Gray eyes as wet as sea
Crying motionless and stealth
A hug likeso with a tree.

Never she felt this happy
Meeting this guy again
Born with war and agony
Relief from pain was gain.

A kiss in the cheek, she flew
Dazzled by his soft, tender lips
Dots around her body drew
Her cheeks are like strawberry dips.

Scarred by the war
Only one made her smile
Now he'll no longer be afar
Because the war is on its trial"

Wow, its like different eras had passed since I last wrote a poem this long. But still, I only wrote this for about thirty freaking minutes! Its really awesome because all these words just popped out my head and static waves transmitted the words through nerves down to my hand and wrote it. LOL!! I use tons of redunduncies, sorry!

Actually, I drew a picture of a very pretty and joyous girl with an eye-patch and in it was a hidden scar. She was my inspiration into making this poem. I really hope I can show you the drawing but it's not done yet. I guess you'll just have to wait.

I wish HE could end my frailed mind and heart. Right now, I'm still in a drastic war. Sometimes I awe if HE could be the guy in my poem and the girl in my drawing could be me. My real intention for this post is for everyone to read my poem so I'm not gonna add too much redunduncies anymore. I really hope you'll like it.

BTW:
Please leave comments. I would be thrilled if you do so!

:D

Procrastinations

2009-07-31T12:39:00.000+08:00

Every year, UP entrance exams take place and more than 70, 000 examinees will be taking it nationwide. This is one of the main reasons why it's really difficult to enter UP for college.

I am one of the 70, 000 examinees who has an ambition of passing. I know it's a pretty high ambition but it feels like I'm not even trying to pass at all. It's like the only reason why I'm gonna take the test is for me to have an experience. Why did I say that I'm not even trying? Simple. I haven't studied a thing when I'm at home. All I do is procrastinate. How irresponsible of me! haha!

A lot of things have been distracting me for awhile but when some were gone, I lost the will to study. Ironic huh? Well, what can I say, I'm one of the laziest female bitch you'll ever know. When I'm happy and problem free, or when my problems just went away, I become carefree. I won't care about my studies and the extra-curricular activities. I only care about my social life and how to make myself more happy. That's why I've been procrastinating.

Top 12 Procrastinations:
1. Watch MTV's
2. Listen to music
3. Go online
4. Hang-out with friends
5. EAT!
6. Blogging
7. Goof off
8. Draw
9. Sleep
10. Read books
11. Dance
12. Stare blankly at the ceiling

Texting isn't part of my top12 procrastinations because I've been avoiding my cellphone since I knew when I'll be taking the test. Right now I'm not sure if I could study hard enough. I'm also in doubt if I can pass UPCAT. But when some of my anxieties were flushed down the toilet, I didn't think about the pressure of UPCAT anymore. haha!! Wish me luck! ( Right now, the only way I can pass is through luck! haha!)

:D

Falling in a deep Abyss of Misery

2009-07-27T18:36:00.000+08:00

It's been days since I last talked to DUDE and it has been the hardest time ever! I had no one to talk to, no one to share my secrets or problems with. Its like Volcano Head of Mine is gonna errupt any minute of my life that's full of nothing but empty bliss!

Knowing that I've been struggling with my deepest problems alone, feels like I'm drowning in an abyss while reminiscing every single mischief I've been through or going through during the first fifteen years of my life. Seeing those things makes me want to grab a knife from our kitchen drawer and slash it at my wrist. I know it sounds a bit melodramatic but I just couldn't take it anymore. I've been crying every drop of salty juice from my cursed eyes for the past few days. There was nothing frivolous enough to make me show a real smile. Basically, the only thing I do right now is show a smile full of lies. God, I'm such a hypocrite!

Right now, no one is brave enough to dive in the abyss to save me. No one is brave enough to help me escape from drowning from the pressures of UPCAT, the pressure from my parents, the feeling of isolation from DUDE, and from the callousness of Arvin. At least my friends, the PIPIKSTER, are still there for me. I think that there the only ones trying to save me from drowning.

Hm.,this post seems to be the shortest post so far. Hope it's good because it shows nothing but my misery. You might get sick of my constant agony. Either way, I hope you'll like my post...

:(

Beer Glass Full of Friendship....

2009-07-23T19:58:00.000+08:00

A lot of people know I drink and get drunk easily. Even I admits it. But even though this is the case, I can't help but drink more and more, until I get too drunk to function.

My blog was mostly about one guy, but one of my biggest mistake was not considering the other guy, my bestfriend, aka: dude.

A lot of people mistaken him as Hades (the flirtatious guy I was talking about from my last post), but FYI, its not him, Hades is my classmate.

Now for the real story....

My addictiveness to Arvin was just like my addictiveness to BEER. I can't help but look at him or talk about him or be near him. I know a lot of people are getting sick of me talking about him constantly every single day of my lunatic life, but what I never expected was that my very own DUDE was getting sick of my intoxicated mouth talking about him.

Last night, we were chatting, and he just got mad for no reason, or so I thought, but like people say, a lot of people die from false thoughts ( MADAMING NAMAMATAY SA MALAKING AKALA ). From my last post, my DUDE and MJ read about Hades and my DUDE asked MJ to guard me from the horrifying darkness the flirtatious guy Hades could bring me. I just found out about this last night, when DUDE was already mad. MJ became my guardian angel. He was the one who told me that DUDE was mad because of my addictiveness to a certain beer only a few like to drink, Arvin....

But upon knowing this, I also read the status of DUDE saying "wag mu nang bantayan yan MJ, walang quentang tao yan" ( :( )...At first I didn't know it was me, but upon pondering these words, and also with the help of MJ, I found out that he was talking about me.

I never knew my callousness can drag people to the point of them turning there back on me. I really never expected this to happen, especially knowing that my DUDE rarely gets mad at me. Now, my freakishly hunermous mind is failing to function. I can't tell anyone my deepest secrets and have no one to talk to during online period.

Message for DUDE:

In case you'll be reading this, I just want you to know how sorry I am for my mistake of isolating you and choosing Arvin over you. Who is he anyway right? I just fell in love with him in the middle of the dance floor. But you became my friend from the beggining of highschool, the best chapter of our lives. And losing you will be the most horrifying part of the book. And I fear that this chapter might not have a happy ending. Its like the protagonist is being brutally killed without giving a chance to fight. And I never want our beer glass of friendship to be filled with isolation and gruesome pain. I really hope you forgive me.

Its my first time to blog about apologizing but this is the only way I came up with because I've always been afraid in apologizing in front of the person who's mad at me. I guess I made my move, its all up to him now....

:(..:((

♥ Impenetrable LOVE ♥

2009-07-21T19:55:00.000+08:00

Hey guys!! It's been awhile since I last posted huh?? Well, here I am again!! The fairest
blogger in the world!!haha!!

Today, my post is, once again, about my love for this guy. Even if you get sick of reading my blog that's all about him, I DON'T FREAKING CARE ABOUT YOU!! You know why?? Because I LOVE HIM!!♥♥♥

Remember my last post?? It's entitled "Oh, so Callous". I just let you reminisce because HE READ IT!!waah!!BUSTED... Now when he read it, he sorta got mad for awhile but before I could even end this scornfully useless life of mine, he called me and said that he is no longer mad. haha!! But I learned my lesson to NEVER use the term GROTESQUE to someone you dearly LOVE!!:))(LOL!!)

A few days after this happened, my phone got destroyed, but that didn't stop me from communicating with him. I borrowed the cellphones of my dear sissies and text him. He even called the night I watched Harry Potter (Awesome movie by the way. Daniel Radcliffe is so cute!!Too bad for Dumbledore though).

Then there was this guy who was constantly flirting to me. Let's hide him by the name HADES because he mimicked this god for a school activity. Hades always tries to hold my hand or HUG ME!!damn.,I totally hate it when he does this things. I couldn't stand it!! Since I love ARVIN, I openly told him what Hades kept doing to me.

Feeling guilty (even if I don't tolerate Hades' actions), I told ARVIN that maybe I should hug him, too. I didn't want guilt to fill my heart that's already full of my love for ARVIN. Yesterday (Monday), I hugged him. But later that night, when my parents got home, my mom and dad asked me freakishly frightening questions. They were asking who ARVIN was because they read his messages on my sis' phone. When the brutal interview started, I knew that they were gonna force me to stay away from him, and so they did. Today, I told him what my parents said. At first I was afraid because my parents do not hesitate to BEAT ME UP, but didn't want the past to happen again. My past with JULIUS ended this way, with my parents telling me to stay away from him and I NEVER want this to happen with me and ARVIN knowing that we're not even together yet.

Telling this to him was gruesomely painful. I even cried while taking the chapter test for math. Good thing nobody noticed.

Now, I will do my best to stand up to my parents and defend my love, especially when I know i followed there will for me to take up medical courses at college. And there's no way my parents nor Hades could RUIN my LOVE for Arvin.

I guess the real test for my love is yet to come, till then, I'll be ready....

I LOVE ARVIN!!!WAAAH!!!

:D

Oh, so CALLOUS

2009-06-29T20:56:00.000+08:00

I am not exactly a typical teenage girl who likes dating, but one thing's for sure, I am under a spell over a grotesque guy. Kidding!! I am not under a spell, I am extremely in LOVE!!<3

It started last February 14, 2009, the night of all nights, JS Promenade. It was one of the best nights of my Highschool life.

As we all know, if there's prom, there's dancing!! I LOVE DANCING!! When it was time for another slow dance, by the way, the song was El Bimbo, I danced with one of my Ex-suitors who almost had a shot on me. We didn't finish the song and I don't know why, haha!! While the song was playing, I saw my friend, all alone without anyone to dance with. So I asked for his hand. (Ain't it weird? I was the one who asked the guy? Wicked huh?!)

While we were dancing, I was singing. I'm not exactly a singer so it was pretty cool because I wasn't shy around him. Although I was the loudest slow dancer around (no jokes here, haha!!), he wasn't talking. I guess his not use to dance with a girl as pretty as me(no jokes here, too!!). After that, we started texting and talking all the time!! Then I found out that he has hidden feelings for me. (Should've seen that one coming. haha!!)

Summer time arrived and we didn't stop talking. Although there are time wherein we fought because of my JEALOUS HEART, we didn't stop. We would sometimes talk until 5am(wicked).

School has begun and we rarely talk. He really is a shy guy (TORPE). I started to feel isolated because I already have feeling for him. I even got drunk and screamed and cried his name a lot of freaking times!

I couldn't stand the pressure of him not talking to me so I took the mic and talked to him( i think??). Well, at first I got mad at him then we started talking again. (Yey!!grab a champagne bottle now!!). But sometimes, thinking about the fact that he and his PAST are classmates, my JEALOUS HEART explodes like a volcano.

I wanted to be closer to him so I asked him out(it's like I'm the guy here huh?). I got really excited until he told me awhile ago that his PAST and the girl's NEW is coming with us. It will be a double date. I didn't know how to react at first but since I really like him, I said that they could come with us. My heart was pounding when he told me that. I guess Volcano Jealous Heart of Mine errupted again. It's like he doesn't care about how I feel right?! I always have to make the first move all the time!! I hate this. But I REALLY LIKE HIM!! And I never considered his grotesque face to what I feel.

BTW: He doesn't exactly look grotesque. I just like to put it that way so that NO ONE steals him away. HAHAHA!!

end of story!!bye!!

:D

Rhythm's Tragedy

2009-06-26T19:15:00.000+08:00

June 26, 2009

A horrific news was delivered early this morning by my Economics Teacher.,a very horrifying news.,

Another morning at school and as usual, I was tired and sleepy to even care about the surroundings. All I care about is my unfinished homework for Economics because I have to finish it before second period.

I finished my collage before second period (good thing, too!). Everyday, our Economics Teacher always tells us to watch news everyday. Maybe he thought that if he says a news that will really shock us, his little wish would come true, so he told the most shocking news every music lover's ears could hear. He said that the King of Pop, Michael Jackson, has passed away because of cardiac arrest before I could even get to school. I was shock because he is one of my idols.

When I was a kid, I didn't exactly appreciate music, especially 80's music, until I heard the song Thriller by Michael Jackson. While I was listening to the song, my feet started tapping and my hips began to shake. From that day on, I loved and became addicted to music.

One day, my mom gave me his latest album, Thriller wherein he made tons of collaborations with numerous and famous artists like Fergie and Akon. I felt ecstatic when I received the album. This album was made to celebrate MJ's 25th year as an artist, an outstanding artist.

When I got home, that tragic news was everywhere.

Michael Jackson: 1958-2009

Jackson's life was cut shockingly and mysteriously short just as he planned his comeback.

(http://news.yahoo.com/s/ap/us_obit_michael_jackson)

Fans around the world mourn Michael Jackson

AP – 17 mins ago SYDNEY – The news stunned nearly everyone, from the young man in Colombia who was named after the King of Pop, to Malaysians who named a soy drink for him, to a generation of people around the world who have tried to moonwalk.

and many more........

The news is not only in the internet but also in TV shows that feature news. I'm sure this news will also be in every tabloids and broadsheets all over the world.

Though he had tons of controversies this pass years, I still loved his music and the way he handled things. He gave entertainment to everyone and gave the Black Americans a great image in the industry. He was an influence to many, not just pop, but many singers all over the world. He was an icon that everyone loved. No one could ever replace his contributions and his greatness in the World of Music.

A toast for the King of Pop!! May he leave in our Ipods and our memory.......

Thriller - Michael Jackson
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Hear my Voice Whisper

2009-06-25T18:32:00.000+08:00

as you know.,i am new here.,i already have an experience in blogging but i'm not sure if i'm really good at it.,all i know is that i like composing stuffs.,:D

my friend told me that this is a good place to write a blog so i tried it.,haha!!i just hope he is right!!

if you're wondering why my blog title is "The Wind Whispers".,here's the reason why.,i am not good at sharing secrets or telling stories verbally.,maybe when i read a script i can but when i have to make something up on the spot.,my sentences aren't exactly full of "brilliant" words.,i just get too nervous when i talk.,for me.,blogging is like whispering someone your secret even if i know that a lot of people will be reading my blog.,i just want the people to listen even just through reading.,the wind always whisper but we still listen.,so i thought that this might be a nice blog title.,haha!!i really hope you like it though.,

as regards to my blog.,i'm not sure if i could post blogs as much as possible because i am now a senior.,meaning.,a lot of things will be going on so i will be really busy.,i just hope i can make it more attractive so that blog readers could actually read it.,haha!!not really good at html codes and stuff like that.,but is it even possible to put stuffs like those here??i'm not really sure.,

by the way.,my name is Cathryne Denese F. Rabago.,you can call me nese.,ryne.,and denese.,if you call me cathryne.,i would NEVER respond.,haha!!i guess i'll just put my hobbies and interest later.,sort of busy right now.,its a good thing i was able to make a blogspot account and my first ever blog!!haha!!

if you want to get to know me better.,you could add me up at ym.,evilshadow_ryne@yahoo.com.,you could also text me if you want but too bad.,i'm not giving you my #!!haha.,did you just got pissed??haha!!

well.,that's all for now.,see you guys later!!when i whisper again.,haha!!