& Shut Up
Hi, I'm a the mofo with that sexy mole and I would like to bury myself in a hole. I am skinny and bulimic but I hate diet coke and apples. I like being sympathetic because it makes me look good and even though I am skinny and bulimic I still do not wish you to be like me. I am unique.
Date:
Tuesday, November 10, 2009
Time:
5:54 PM
Fade to Black
Because of all the agony I've experienced, I'm starting to become heartless. I guess blogging doesn't help me that much. I'm not mad at anyone, though. Its just that, my heart is slowly fading to black.
There are a lot of things I couldn't tell to anyone, not even my closest friends. Like the pain I feel every time people say that me and my boyfriend are not right for each other. Or people just bullying me for no reason. I guess I'm pretty ill-fated.
I know people aren't mind readers to know what I think and feel. I just couldn't afford another misjudgment because of my feelings. I don't want to be selfish and grab their attention because I feel pain or something. Although, because of that want, I'm starting to lose it.
Do you know the feeling of being unwanted? Well, that's what I keep feeling to everyone. Even my boyfriend! I guess he just likes DOTA better than me. Or his just not crazy about me like I am to him. Crap! My life's so discombobulating!
Because of these, I couldn't think of any possible thing that could make my life better. All I could do is be a total tomfoolery for me not to think about all these. I guess that's why I'm like a narcotic bitch most of the time.
I guess this is the reason why I fear opening up, because of misjudgments. Because I don't want people to think I want all eyes on me. I just want to live a life inconspicuously. But like I said, I couldn't take living in closed doors anymore. I just want to let every emotion out! I'm about to explode! And I don't think blogging is the key from keeping me from exploding.
:D
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